Your healing process truly never ends.

One day I’m raving about the massive orgasms that my husband gives me and the next I feel like I want to ruin his mood by making a hurtful comment or starting a fight for no reason.

That’s such a toxic trait, one that I am aware of and have no intention to act on.

Life has been insanely kind to me and I’m extremely grateful for all that I have today. A loving husband who is everything I imagined him to be.

I am living in my own space with him which, yes, is a big deal in brown culture. The girl usually moves in with her in-laws but luckily enough we found a way to live separately.

I don’t want to be toxic, this man has done nothing wrong and I have no intentions of hurting him.

It’s just an evil thought at the back of my head like ‘tear him down, make him feel bad about himself’.

He is a gem and to be honest, I am nothing without him.

He is my everything.

I recognised this behaviour and I told him that I’m feeling this way and that I don’t intend on acting on this nonsensical impulse.

It’s like the devil’s voice, only I’m the Devil.

Looking at the bright side, there are many behaviour patterns that I have broken so far but the work is never done.

I love my husband and I will continue to better myself for him everyday. This is a healthy relationship and it will continue to stay one as long as both of us put the work in, Ojala.