You have the strength love. I promise you do.

Why are you sitting here wasting your time worrying about something so tiny. Something that shouldn’t matter even a little bit. Having him on your social media isn’t getting you anything besides anxiety. Why do you constantly choose to torture yourself over the small details of things that are not worth your time.

I don’t want to speak for you but I think it’s the quarantine that’s driving everyone up the wall.

They don’t just say ‘the idle mind is the devil’s workshop’ without a reason. Come on girl, how many times are we going to do this.

It’s up to you, not me. I can’t make your decisions for you, we both know that. It’s just an unfollow option, why do you hesitate every time your brain takes you there.

You’ve attempted it many times but why not go ahead with it? Is it the familiarity? What familiarity though? He’s not your home, he never was and deep down you knew it.

You felt it the second you two shook hands but unfortunately there was no turning back from that point onward. It’s been years and he wasn’t even good in any way.

You’re sitting there racking your brain, rummaging through your memory box trying to find that one moment of happiness that you shared so you could feel better about how you’re feeling right now. But you and I both know that you won’t be able to find anything, just sitting there trying to think of a time when you guys were laughing till your stomachs hurt is a waste of time honey and I think you know that too. You might think it exists but there’s a reason why you blocked everything out, no?

You only remember the normal boring days where you stayed in watching tv as he refused to take you out because apparently you didn’t deserve it. You weren’t fulfilling his so-called ‘needs’ emotionally or otherwise.

You were his mother and he’ll have another after you, that’s just his vicious cycle. He needs someone to cling onto and unfortunately you fell in that path.

That’s how he gets his validation, by suppressing and belittling you but what he’s unaware of is that you’re a phoenix who is just waiting to rise from the ashes that he thinks he’s made of you.

He said things to you which were very disturbing to say the least but you turned a blind eye like you did with all the other red flags that he was waving at you.

He himself was the red flag.

I want to say that it’s ok and maybe it is because we all make mistakes and this was yours. I’ve asked you several times if you have any regrets but I’m glad the answer is always no.

That would have driven you to the edge and that’s the last thing we want, right?

I know things haven’t really been great since 2020 started but that doesn’t mean we let him win.

This could be your next step. One that would set you free of the shackles that you think you’re in. The chains aren’t actually there, you’re already free of him.

All you have to do is click that unfollow option. I’m not going to force you to do it because these things have to happen at your own pace. Don’t over think it, just know that you have the strength to do it.