If you choose to stay.

If you choose to stay, I will work for us, I will work on us.

I want YOU. I want this.

I know it’s not going to be an easy journey but you make things easier. The flow of things comes so naturally with you.

I'm terrified.

There’s a whirlwind of emotions in my head but all care about is fixing this with you if you choose to stay.

I will tap into the part of me that’s been asleep forever and show you that YOU are what I want.

It would be so stupid of me to let this go. To let us go.

Silence can both be painful and comforting and I want both of them with you.

Even if you don’t want to speak to me, I want to be in the silences with you whether it’s in the car, in a cinema or on the opposite ends of a sofa if you’ll have me.

You satisfy me emotionally, intellectually and physically and I wouldn't have it any other way.

I want YOU and I will show you if you choose to stay.

I got you. I know that THIS is worth it and I’m willing to put in the work. It’s what I want. YOU.

I also know that it’s not going to be easy living it down and finding our way back is going to be a challenge but I’m willing to do it if you choose to stay.

Trust isn't easy to gain and I realise that I've shaken up your world and that it’s been unfair beyond imagination but I will make amends if you choose to stay.

As I'm writing this, my inners are turning at the thought of dropping all my guards. I'm going to do it for you, for us.

I will be repeating this to myself mainly trying to convince myself to do it which I will.

Stepping out of the comfort zone is what all of this is about and I’m willing to do it for us if you choose to stay.

I've been staring at my laptop screen for the past hour and a half trying to come up with something that will help me express myself to you.

At the end of the day, I feel like these are just words on a screen and that it’s the actions that will show you that I truly do want you.