Give yourself a break from everyone. You need it.

Taking some space gives you perspective.

How do I navigate through the trash that my mind is filled with. I’m trying to find my way around it but I’m having trouble with it.

I know it’s ok to take things slow when it comes to your mental health and I’m in no rush so I decided to go on a 2 week bender where I didn’t interact with anyone except my family.

Taking some space gives you perspective, you view your situation from a distance and that’s what gives you clarity.

My world turned upside down on the 29th of December and I’m still struggling to pick myself back up. My 2 week bender led me to get irritated at anyone who said anything negative about the man who I intended on marrying.

I still don’t have it in me to write what turned my world upside down. All I know is that I really liked him but he’s not the person I thought he was, which is so upsetting because he seemed perfect.

He created such a beautiful illusion of the life we could have had.

You know what though, I don’t need him to give me that luxurious life because I already fucking have it. I am blessed by God to have been born in a household that has given me things that I wanted without even asking for them.

The struggle of moving on from him is real. I’ve definitely been through worse but I’m still not able to bring myself to interact with other people just yet. I know I’ll get there eventually and matters of the heart do take more time to heal so I’ll keep persevering and I will eventually heal from the PTSD that this human being has caused me.



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