None of this is easy.

If I stop, I’m being unfair, if I stay I’m compromising my self-worth.

Just when I feel like it’s time to give up, I get an intuitive reading done and get pulled back into his vortex.

To give up or not to give up.

It seems silly of me to be holding on but the heart wants what it wants.

In some cases, it’s better not to give into temptations but when you’re stubborn like me, you just don’t want to give a shit.

I have pure intentions (I think). I just want him to feel me as I feel him.

Giving up seems like a weakness but what am I supposed to do? Pretend like he never mattered to me? I can’t do that. It’s not fair to the both of us. Obviously this is mostly about me and how am I supposed to move on knowing that we didn’t even give each other a fighting chance.

We misunderstood each other.

I’m irritated because I feel like I’m compromising my self-worth but something needs to be done. It may seem like a horrible idea but I think I’m going to take matters into my own hands. I can feel my inner self screaming ‘NO DANIA, NO’.

It’s not going to be a confrontation(even if it is, I’m sure I’ll just freak the fuck out. I can’t do confrontations anyway).

I’ll just be going in for a casual check up. In case I haven’t mentioned it earlier, he’s a dentist. I have butterflies just thinking about it. There is a cavity that needs to be checked out. I can feel my nerves tightening up. This is a horrible idea Dania.

I just want him to feel what I feel when he prays/manifests me. Is that too much to ask?

I sound like an over obsessed lunatic. I promise I’m normal, I just don’t want to give up and wants exceed everything else, right?