It’s really anticlimactic being the main character of your own life.

That’s the story.

I am grateful for the downtime that I have though.

Most days, I wake up stressed and sometimes feeling lonely but I can’t control that feeling so I let myself feel whatever my heart desires.

More importantly, I am calm. Calmer than I have been in years.

Accepting and understanding that the universe will work things out for me is what brought me here. Letting go of the control to ‘make things happen’ was holding me back.

The more you push for something, the further away it gets from you. I learned that the hard way.

Whatever it is, it will find it’s way back to you if it’s meant to.

I’ve gone on and on about this person for months and now I have moved past it and found a different path for myself.

I’m the main character now.

Who knew thinking about yourself first was going to be such a task but it’s ok. You learn with time.

As…

As hard as a pill it was to swallow, it took me 7 long months to come to terms with all of it.

The long nights of contemplation, the daily endless social media stalking has all come to a halt. …

Life has a funny way of showing you what’s good and bad for you.

If there’s anything I’ve learned this year it’s that I’m constantly protected and being watched over by God.

I don’t know what good I did in a past life to be seen and protected like this…

I’ve always had trouble fitting in with people.

Back in high school I was mostly friends with my sister’s friends.

Everyone was a bully or maybe there was just something wrong with me.

I don’t have a head strong personality where I can fight and talk back to people, I’m…

There’s a lot of staticness in my life at the moment and I think that’s necessary considering all that has happened in the past few months. It was much needed.

I have been in overdrive for sure but now it’s time to take a breath and take it easy.

I’m…

Leems is gone.

He was my tangible goal with a timestamp and now he’s gone and that’s ok.

Sometimes things don’t work out the way you imagine them to, that’s mostly what happens. It feels unfair and it hurts for a very very long time.

I was hurting for a…

My teenage years were mostly spent being bullied by everyone I came across. I didn’t know how to talk back, I still don’t to be honest but now I know how to draw boundaries. …