Life has a funny way of showing you what’s good and bad for you.
If there’s anything I’ve learned this year it’s that I’m constantly protected and being watched over by God.
I don’t know what good I did in a past life to be seen and protected like this…
I’ve always had trouble fitting in with people.
Back in high school I was mostly friends with my sister’s friends.
Everyone was a bully or maybe there was just something wrong with me.
I don’t have a head strong personality where I can fight and talk back to people, I’m…
Leems is gone.
He was my tangible goal with a timestamp and now he’s gone and that’s ok.
Sometimes things don’t work out the way you imagine them to, that’s mostly what happens. It feels unfair and it hurts for a very very long time.
I was hurting for a…
I am free.
Free from the shackles of the men who were out to keep my heart captive.
Free from him.
I no longer want him or anyone who relates to a past version of me.
A weight seems to be lifted off my chest knowing that these men no longer hold power over me.
I am free.
There are many things that have happened in life that I regret but this isn’t one of them. I spent months pining over him. it was more like obsessing but who likes labels.
I was dreaming of a life with him. I genuinely wanted the person. Not for his money…
I should make a promise to not fully indulge myself in you, to not let myself disappear in your existence.
That will be unfair to me and I don’t deserve that. I deserve the universe and more. There is so much more that exists out there.
I wish I could get lost in a vortex of the universe and learn the secrets of how it all works. But that’s something that we should leave for another lifetime.
I will not let your light dull or overpower mine.
We shall shine together as one.
Till we meet again my love.